my point of view

my job will stop at this month....Wednesday i need to work for my last conference called AODA. oh i never want it to....hmmm

feel like want to find some part time job for the other 1 month.
at the beginning i am really cant use to the working life but after 2 week i am starting to enjoy this job d. nice i am get quite a lot of experience there and get to know a lot of friend there.

besides that i am also know what is going to happen when working in an office. how they play politic, why they do that, and so on...in this 2 month i get to know different kind of people out there and how there acting and how they doing thing. some people is horrible, they can act like very real and sincere to you but actually is not. oh my god!!! i don't know why they do that to me and others, i don't know where they learn from. i am wonder is there feel very good to treat others like this?they will feel suffer that need to acting different in front of peoples?do they agony? i am really felt distress.

i am really pity them.


"they" always make my mood down and i am really raged on them sometimes. i am just feel like want to ask them clearly and what happen actually!!! what the fuck is going on!!???
i am blurr~~~really not understand. i am also don't know why they do affect my emotion a lot
!maybe i care about them. i am jusr confuse and a lot of question in my mind.

why they want to do like that? people wont be angel all the time. we are human, we got feeling. sometimes we also can do some unbelievable thing that we cant expected!! why so mind and care about others feel and think so much??!not asking you not to care but not that much.

the facts is you are not angel but why u want to acting you are angel in front of people?! because want to become angel in front of people and lying a lot and to hurt others. so selfish man!!! but sometimes cant control because this is born to be like.not necessary. just be yourself, if you too care about others the more you not become yourself. is it worth?

after write dowan all of my feel, i am feel more better d.hmm...blogging is a good thing because i can tell everything here.

hope it not boring you.^!* night