好累

working attire
body shirt-Primark
pant-new look
belt-primark

sometimes you felt lonely,

you will think of someone.

we start to achieving the dream when you start to working,

we won't shed our tears easily,

we won't give up easily.

just treat it as our past in our life and experience that we gain from our past.

try to tolerate and try to bear with it.

no matter what you did and what you had at past,

It's just become your past with regretful ?

it wont go back anymore no matter how.

when we felt so stress until we almost suffocate

then we will think of our love from the past we had been through.

wish to have someone to dinner and movie with after we come back from work

we wish there is someone we can share everything, 

we need someone to support us.

when the time we feel so tired, and depress, 

we will still think of someone who we can lay our head on someone shoulder and have a rest.

when we are alone and feel lonely.

we will check out who is online.

we will just keep refresh the Facebook and keep update our friend status.

actually we feel like to cry out loud, but we still try to hold with it and act like nothing happen with a smile face.

actually we care about every single thing so much, but we will just act that we don't care at all.

actually we just feel like to stay, but in the end we insist choose to leave.

actually it's torture our feeling, but try to convince yourself that you are living with happiness.

actually we can't forget about it but we will still showed that we're already forget.

actually we can't let go but we tell them we already did.

you is you,

me is me.

actually we can't let go, but we tel them we can't stand anymore.

actually all we say is bullshit but we still believe that it's true words from our heart.

actually the tears is almost shedding but we still insist keep it in the eyes and don't let it shed.

actually we can't turn all over and go back but we still stubborn not to let go.

actually we know ourself are get hurt deeply into the heart, but we still continue the thing over and over again.

 we already knew it's won't work on it but we still choose not to believe.

actually disguise ourself the facts is much more tired than telling the truth, but we still choose to pretend it's the facts.

It's just because we try to showed that we are tough enough, 

  even we're suffering though but we still act like nothing.

we will just try our best to hide our real feeling from the heart from everyone else.

we just not to let people know that we are get hurt, 

we just try not to make people around us worried about it.

we just want to bear with it ourselves even we felt heartbreak until almost suffocate from it.

we will still show and tell people, I'm fine, I'm alright.=..)

then we will think back, why we must be that suffer and acting nothing happen from the true?

why we will think that we're tough enough to accept all those pain.

huh~~it's really tired and torture our life.

why must make thing complicated and we can't always just follow our feeling to go and do thing?

it's because we care how others feel.

for instances, if I betrayed and lied to someone you love, he or she will feel heart break and sad.

why must you go to hurt someone you love?

if you're human being with rational, sound mind. you wont try to hurt someone that love you so much.

protect,think,love,care,and be more considerate to your love one.

try your best to appreciate what he or she do for you.

think before you try to do the thing you might hurt him or her.

P/S: try to get use to it.

that all. something and sometimes thing can't trust at all..

question someone is useless,  if he or she feel like want to tell you then he or she will do. 

if not no matter how you force he or she ..the result still the same.

people happy and enjoyed life over there. 

but me ?

what for?

let it be and let it go right now!

期待

我不晓得我在期待着什么=（

等待着不会发生的东西？

盼望着一个很傻的事情？

你这笨蛋别那么傻下去了。

别那么笨了。

够烦了。

受够了。

忍够了。

该是时候了。

好累哦！

失望！

彻底的

绝望！

betrayed

再好再乖在听话的妻子，
到了莫段时期，
都会遇到这种事件发生在大家身上。

做为人妻，我们也需要有自己的空间，
自己的朋友，自己的生活与目的。
不是只是为老公和孩子而活而已。

你再乖，再听话，他人和心一变，
婚姻破裂，
那就什么都没了。
我们要做一个靠自己的能力而生存的人。
先想自己要的是什么。

绝对不可让自己跟社会脱节。
认识人多办事自然容易得多。
生活也没那么清淡无味。

P/S:
糟！！ 这份工我适合吗？
是我想要的吗？
我会在浪费时间吗？
会吗？
怎么办呢？
惨了！会害到我朋友吗？
还是别想那么多了。。。
做了才打算。

never end

It will never end
keep repeating the cycle
again and again

let it go 

don't feel 

don't think 

don't touch 

don't see

don't smell

don't taste 

don't give

don't sacrify

don't care

life still goes on

mind still move on

heart still beating

work still work

eat still eat

sleep still sleep

P/s: listening to keep bleeding love from Leona Lewis =.)

Tsunami and earth quake in japan

Tsunami and earth quake happened again in Japan.

This time is much more serious than before.

I heard off the news from broadcast said that it will be possible nuclear radiative leakage and it will causing a lot of health problem for people.

I really felt sorry to those victim for this disaster.

I hope this sad event will end very soon and they will get help from every country to recover the things up.

This event had cause a lot of bad consequences to economy and any other company like Japan product electricity product, cars and tourism industry.

After the Tsunami happen 

This month Matta Fair in Malaysia doesn't many of people travel to Japan.

I have some of my friends have to cancel the trip to Japan.

There is a lot of cancellation flight and trip happened this few days.

 It's will affected a lot of company especially tourism industry.

The most important is the radiative don't happen to leakage and affected the human health.

I was feel so lucky and grateful to be born in Malaysia.

you know I know =)

P/s: i think i will getting fat after i work cause i ha my 3 meal on time, sleep on time and eat on time.

hmm i know it's a good life style for me but...it will make me fat and gain my weight too =.(

I wish to get my 1st salary now!! argh!!!

a lot of things need to pay now! ish!

sigh!

my income + saving  is negative now.

ish!

exhausted

I have been so busy and tired till I have no time and no energy to put my finger on the key board.
just getting busier and busier.
I feel so tired and lazy to go out recently.

I heard a news from radio said that a young guy who homosexual got HIV had sex with 139 guys and stealing their money and disappear. 

Oh my god! if not mistake that guy who named as Alvin or Kelvin only 23 year old.

He trying to rape and have sex with guy as many as he can until now.

Finally the secret is review from the public.

please play safe before you want to orgasm for few seconds.

P/S: sleep as much as i can on weekends ^^

routine

 feel so good with my naked face~
I hate make up on my face

Today I have an AGM on this afternoon and yesterday I have my induction session with other 3 new employees in different department.

I realize that there is almost 97% of women working under Berjaya start from 14 floor to 20 floor in different department.

hmmm~~~ 

why?

I love my working day been busy start from 9am to 6 pm non stop.

yes .this is right. don't let the bad think in my mind.

great

My working hours is 9am - 6pm.

My weekdays routine currently. 

wake up @ 730am,preparing to work. 

go out @ 8am and wait my colleague.

then reached office @9am.

start working till around 12:35pm-1:30pm out for lunch.

then start work non stop till 6:30 to 7pm.

either go back with colleague or go back by monorail and bus.

then reached home and take away my dinner.

having my dinner while am watching drama.

then around 12am go to bed and sleep.

I just keep repeating the routine till I am reached 55 y/o?

P/S: Sometimes people don't let us go cause they haven get the right back up plan and better back up than you.

it's the time to pamper myself

I just feel like want to go many nice, cozy, relax,cheering place like club, having a party,look out point, the hills,pavilion shopping mall, Luna Bar, Sky Bar, have a nice meals is a must, Genting to inhales some clean air, my body need meditation right now, everything will go smooth, and an island  or beach perhaps, i need to go some place that able to give me a darn nice relaxing time and feeling. 

I extremely need it seriously by now.

When I was thinking about earn lot of money and give to my love one like my family then I will feel super duper happy already. hehe=)

I wish faster I can earn more then I can give my family a super nice life afterward

<3 <3

my work station and become my second home soon. ^-^

today I take away my lunch and have it in my office.

my cute cup in the pantry room * the polka dot with pink <3 my lovely housemate give me as my Xmas present in year 2008 or 2009 teehee~

my colleagues was so friendly and nice...

My senior teach me guide me with patiently.

thanks her so much

and thanks to KK that intro this job to me and bring me to work and sometimes fetch me back .

So far we go to work together and back together. ^-^

eh~~ don't misunderstand yea..

he is a nice guy and help me with sincerely.

I will treat him nice movie and meal when my very 1st salary come out.

I love my job now!

busy busy and busy...

24 hours give to you also not enough to finish all those work.

wow!

tough and full loaded with work now...

so far I haven get scold from my senior manager 

...

scared of her...

she is kind and pretty^^

she is super women.

I also wish to be like her  ^^

XOXO

 night muack =*
listening to i love the way you lie from Rihanna and Eminen 

let it be

just go with the flow?

I just need someone to protect me.
I just need someone to understand me.
I just need someone to love me with heart. *am the only one*
I just need someone to care about me.
I just need some securities.
I just need some comfort.

I just need some friends to listen to my stories to make me feel better. *avoid simply think alone*
I just wish to spend the time to my love one as much as I can. *but someone not think in the same way with me*

Is that hard like climbing to the sky?
Is that something wrong with me?
huh?

p/s: go back home with public transport. Monorail did improve from last time.well done. but it's still smelling, and scary with full of stranger especially Metro bus. yiak! * but I have to go through with it. If not am not gonna save $$ for my dream+wishes.
monorail --> feet-->metro bus --> GK--> feet--> my room.

listening to fuck you by Lily Allen

jobS

Today is my 1st day of my official full time job
quite happy with my job now^^
full schedule
loaded with jobs^^
It's a good start
and i met a super nice friend that help me a lot^^

Today I had learn a lot of things
luckily i got a very nice senior who willing to teach me and guide me all the times
Yesterday night I was worried till can't sleep well.
It just make me feel like a kid going to enter kinder garden and scared a lot of things.
It's good to have a good superior and colleagues.
they were so funny and friendly

Gampateh!!! i know i can do it! by the way I work in marketing department in Berjaya=)
Yes! earn lot!!! get promoted faster!!!!
so that my dream will come true!!!
=) hehe~

a little bit tired for tonight
I will sleep soon^^
XOXO

worried

I will start working very soon
I have no idea what I worried and what I think so far.
Tomorrow I will have medical check up.
After that I will start my working life already.

flexibility
freedom
friendly
foods

argh~
sleep first ,I have to wake up early for medical check up.
I don't think so much.

depressed

am I  happy with my life now?

What I can get in the end?

Am I always over loaded with something rubbish in my mind?

I ruin it, destroy it.

I try to destroy something good to me and try to get close something bad to me?

What's in my mind for this moment?

I really tired of it.

I shouldn't think and care so much.

Career...

Family...

Money...

Status...

Recognition....

relationship...

What I can get is stress up myself and I get nothing in the end.

what for?

I need some friends who can understand me right now.

I really miss my study life when am study in KL.

It's really leave me a very nice memory to me.

Today I try to take some notes and text books for my ICSA revision .

then I saw a lot of note that I had made and what I do when am study that time.

Then I open up my picture album when I took time by time when I study in KL.

It's does make me feel better.

I should thanks to someone been used a few years who give me freedom, to make me become more independent and know how to take care of myself.

I love my old time me.

I miss my old time me.

I want to become like old time me.

he used less than a year to destroy my old time me.

I have to stay strong. 

I have to become like old time.

To become a person who know how to take care of myself, independent, everything can be settle by myself alone.

I can go out alone, I can eat alone, I can live alone.

I should find myself out.

Seriously I can't let anyone who love me and care about me down and worried about me all the time.

Times.

Times prove everything.

^_^

I know I can do it.

I love my old time much.

I wish to get back my life.

after working our life will be less contact with our friends cause everyone busy with their stuff.

not like study life, we can mingle around, watching TV together, pillow talk, dinner together , study together.

when we working, everyday just sit in the room after back from work.

sleep,eat, work x 12309743475804760790767676times .

sigh!

I wish to tele-port myself back to old times.

times traveling .

鱼跃在花见

I watch this drama recently.

I realise one thing.

This movie used a lot of purple or velvet color for their clothes and accessories.

=)

......................................................................

Btw, I will start working under Berjaya by next month.

This is my very first job.

I wish everything goes smoothly and goes well.

I still haven get myself some working attire. I have no idea what I'm going to buy.

hmm~

I got a shopping list for myself and my dad already^^

hehe....

so happy if I can get my dad a LV wallet

I know I can get one for my dad very soon =)

<3

I should move forward for my dream now

Car??

House?? *dreaming* =P

then only for luxury accessories such as watches, bags, shoes, bracelet... teehee... ^_^

Tutti Frutti

Self service to get a cup of frozen yogurt <3

choosing your size of the cup or bowl

choose your favorite yogurt.

there is 8 type of flavor such as mango, original, vanilla, chocolate, passion fruit, blueberries,apple and strawberries yogurt.

 It can be mix with different flavor.

after get your yogurt then choose your topping with fruit ,candy, choc or any other topping with syrup that you like.

my blueberries and apple yogurt.

I doesn't like much on apple yogurt.

It's cost me around RM20 ++ ish!

A little bit pricey for me.

No more next time cause the price that I can't afford and it's nothing special to let me spend on you Tutti Frutti. 

=P

p/s:
I starting to feel scary on myself
I starting to feel like am trying to elude something that I don't wish to see and know about it


It's shouldn't be like that
When I turn to become like this
I scared when I looking at the thing that allow me to find out the true
I feel so reluctant to look at it when it's just right in front of me
Am I trying to deceive myself?
I starting to feel that happen on me

bak kut teh

Ingredient of the Bak Kut Teh

Ribs , 3 layer meat (hmm pork belly??? *scratch my head*), pork stomach, smoke garlic, fried toufu,

fresh mushroom, of cause the main character Bak Kut Teh's herb 2 pack

(which available in any Chinese pharmacy or wet market),

salt, soy source and black soy source.

cook some vegetable for today's dinner

Bak Kut Teh must have --> 油炸糕，chili padi and garlic

Ta dah~~~

Bak Kut Teh

Yummy yummy~~

you must try.

It's just a very easy way to cook a tasty Bak Kut Teh soup for dinner.

2 pack of Bak kut teh herb I think is for 4 to 5 person .It's depend on the person appetite=)

P/s: 

Recently my dad called me everyday and many times per day.

I know my dad super worried about me. Last time he won't called me everyday but now....

sorry dad and ah ma. I make you all worried about me.I won't do that to you all anymore.

I will know what should I do and shouldn't do.       

listening to The wanted- all time low

one day in Penang

I went to Penang with dad n bro.

we had a small bowl of porridge before we start the patter session n the temple

It's FOC.

my bro and his gf

Vegetarian Food provided all is FOC

We all sitting here and patter for blessing with the monk 

for around one and a half hour.

After that we go to Kek Lok Si

I get 5 for myself.

wishing tree

Then we heading to Ayer Itam have some laksa and dessert.

Bubu cha cha

no good.I have no idea taste like a water or....

this colorful dessert not bad. can say normal.^^

I can't eat laksa so I ordered myself a bowl of Prwan Mee.

not bad.

Deng deng deng deng~~~

Famous Ayer Itam laksa

lot of people q-ing up for take away ^^

 drooling now?

my uncle bought us some kuih. my dad love this much.

 what a happy day with my family^^

 Yesterday is my convocation for Degree in KLCC.

Finally I'm graduated for my Degree course.

sanctum

Producer of Avatar and Titanic.
This movie is inspired by true story which is happen in Papa New Guinea in the movie.

Sanctum is about underwater cave diving team experience a life threatening during an expedition to the unexplored and least accessible cave system in the world.

I cried for the part of one of the team member died and then 2nd part, Carl killed Josh's father.
=..(

For me it's a adventure film that consist of touching scenes. This movie not bad^_^

 

改变

now I only know people taste will change

For instances, last time I don't like to eat Cabonara Spaghetti but now I love it,

 once you together with someone for a period,

the way you think and talk or even life style also will look alike.

the people will changed you are family,best friend, or husband and wife.

 that live with you every single second.

dragon fly which stay in my room for one day and my living room for two days already.

people can change so fast in a blink of eye.

This minute showed you this ,next second it can be totally change to another person.

scary~

是，我知道我自作聪明；

自已为事；

变成有公主脾气；

无理取闹；

霸道；

野蛮；

可是我以前不是这样的，为什么先在我变成这样呢？

我好难过哦。。。

我也搞不清楚到底我要的是什么。

我很糊涂

我怕孤独

我怕

我变成不是我以前的那个我

我变成很依赖对方

我变成对每个人都失去了信任

我很害怕

我要回以前的我。

独立；

信任；

开心；

自由；

listening to Bruno Mars - Grenade and just the way you are

fruits and foods that serving for God.

^^

my lovely grandmama and my dearest mummy~^^

My lovely daddy and siblings

play like a kid

天公

what a busy day
just finish cleaning the house and myself
^^
sleepy and tired but so happy and sweet....
i will upload the picture soon^^
stay tune
night
XOXO

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