on edge

Tomorrow I will leave Malaysia to Manchester already

Wow "kin Zheong"(Tension)

Wow darn nervous about it

I don't know what will happen there and even just for few months only^__^

I just feel like haven pack and ready go to UK for my study

 I was so busy with moving to new house and renovation

I had met with someone who so RUDE and Effing no manner person in the world

F-ing unfortunate for me and my family

 Luckily my daddy is a very very nice person and gentle man

Talk about manner and respect?

Who should mention about this first? Phui!!

So unluncky to have this kind of relatives and cousin la~Phui!!

ok!forget about S and F person

ok.... I was so exhausted  for few continuous days already 

I will have some nice rest and sleep when i reached Liverpool

Exciting for tomorrow=)

 

Hair

Color my hair today

^^

Revlon

RM 22++

30 Dark Brown

My hair color so ugly

Before

Zeng~

Zeng~

 

Zeng~

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After

Nice?

Actually I more prefer my dark color long hair so much

Huray!!!

I got my dark hair back!

Miss you so much

misunderstand

sometimes misunderstand can create a lot of problems

misunderstand can lead to fighting and arguing between each other

It's hard to explain and make it clear sometimes

troublesome

so annoying and frustrating

It's kind of lazy to explain sometimes

some people say didn't do anything no need to explain so much

some people said explain too much mean you're hiding something and you create a lot of story to cover up the real story

but sometimes the things need to make it clear and explain even you are lazy to explain.

and sometime explain is too make thing clear and avoid the doubt and misunderstand

but some people is really using kind of story to hide the true facts and used one story to cover up the other one story

pathetic!!!

Human Being

I should view it in different view and aspects

I should accept the facts

I should view it widely

not look it narrow

F

not in a good mood today

too bad

too sad

too hurt

too much

haiz

sien

What to do?

huh?

Let it go

Just let it be

Just go with the flow right?

ya

Perhaps

I will be

Yesterday we when to celebrate mother's day

I was so happy and enjoy that monent

=)

We went to Flemington hotel to have the dinner 

We are so busy chit chatting until I forget about the washroom.

I will upload the picture soon : )

Today I was sitting in front of TV and enjoy the show in Astro

I'm so in love with AFC Asian Food Channel

Oh My God 

 Since I was young I already in love with cooking and

I will drop down all the recipes from TV programmes and Magazines

gone

Do you all know what is counterfeit love?So called fake love

Time 

Future

Projection

Fairy tales

All of above are the signs of fake love

All about the chemistry between each other whether wear off or fading

Sometime you look at other,

it's seem have a very happiness and sweet life and nice lover

but you wouldn't know how and what is the other side going on in real.

Apparently there is something else arise.

There always a reason for a person to do something

ok, back to my real world

Abit hmm seh tak my friends when I work for this event

sob sob

Tomorrow is my last day that I work for Kenny 

hmmm

so hmm seh tak my partner and others

And I going to pack my luggage and some stuffs already

and I will moving to new house soon

so many things need to do

I fall sick today

I felt my head going to explode 

The vein in brain make me gone crazy

Oh my god!

I can felt the heat is around my body

I don't know what wrong with me 

So sudden that I get sick

Maybe cause of the weather

hmmm

I should take care of myself

ok night

XO ^_^

 

looking for something

 I felt myself had lost something

but I don't know what I lost

What I want actually

I'm tired of being alone

I'm tired of being fool by others people

I'm tired of sarcastic people

I'm tired of being cheat by others 

I'm tired of doubting on everything

I'm tired of being nice to people but end up they didn't appreciate what I did to them

I'm tired with people who didn't keep one's promise

I'm tired with counterfeit people

I'm tired with everything 

I'm looking for something or someone that can give me a shield and security

I'm looking for someone or something that able to amuse me everyday

I'm looking for someone or something that showing their true and real love on me

I'm looking for........................

switching to other topic

This week is my last week for my working already

I looking for replacement for my job on Sunday

I really hope that I can celebrating mother day with my family

Suddenly I felt unwell tonight

Headache 

and gastric

: (

Oh my god

I hope that I can wake up tomorrow morning

and work

 Sien!!! 

Lust Vs Love

Lust or Love

Sometimes it's very hard to define or explain for someone

Lust is craving for sexual intimacy

Most people who claim to love someone don't really love them,

because they don't know what love actually is.

This is an article that I go through today

It's really meaningful for everyone

Possessiveness is not love

Lust is not love

Fear is not love

Keeping people all to yourself is not love

Expecting something from someone is not love

Real love is unconditionally

Like our parents love us unconditionally

You love the person exactly as they are, exactly as they were before and in future

because people change all the time

so if you love that person 

you will love them even if they become something you disagree with.

How many parents can say about their kids?

How many people can say that about their "lover"?

Love is not about to pleasure someone or your amusement.

It's not about what you can give it to others or what the other person can give it to you

Most people are in relationship because  they are horny or lonely,

even if they think that they love the other person.

If one day the person they "love" sudden lost their "equipment" for whatever reason,

would you think they still want to be with that person?

Would they get jealous if the person they "love" wanted to spend time with others people as well?

Love is just like a spiritual thing

It's hard get to understand by yourself

People have to know what they are doing

It has nothing whatsoever to do with sex.