old memories

 hahaha =D this is my very first to enter the blog world (Multiply) as per link below:-
my life my mind my soul
2008 I was so slim on that time!!! argh!44KG that time. Now?
48KG!!!!! wow!!!Now I fat till ah ma dou hmm ying dak!

I also don't have the idea how the hell I can write so much of words on that times.
After I read back with what I had blog , now only I realise the stories is all about love~
oh my gosh!Majorities is sad stories ...hmm~ I think I should blog more about my happy stuff and not the sad stories~

Now only I know how serious and so much I treat my relationship from last time till now~
Now only I realise why my life only had sadness and suffering from love and it seem like I never happy for my love before. Am I think too much?

hmmm~ I think am too many complaints and never share the sweet stuff with you guys^^
but eh~ read probably I did post one of the sweetest stuff in Multiply blog when celebrating Christmas for my first one /=)

I miss that moment so much when I stay at 23rd floor with my lovely and nice housemate for two years ^^  Ai Wen, Eunice Wong, Arashi Wong, Charlotte Kong, Hui Ying, Jocelyn Lai, Kam Fong, Kelvin and Wilfred.

We used to watching TV together, Pillow talks, watch movie, study, doing face mask, cooking, party, and swimming together. I really miss those times=)

How it would be so nice If I still can find a house with full of this lovely housemate and nice home feeling like 23rd floor ^^

Recently I felt so proud of my driving skill hehe! =P when you sit beside me and you will know how my driving so geng! =P

After I taking over Elise agents now I know even more places that I never been there before~I need drive all the way to klang now~ =( so tired hot and sleepy

I wanted to change my jobs now~
Let's see when is the right times I change to more high pay jobs and read probably yea is JOB but not CAREER ^^
I need to earn more and more money now ~ and achieving my dreams -one for my family and the other one is for myself =)
argh!!! gampateh! work hard and should stop spend so hard =P

I decide to stay for one more year and I wish everything will be fine soon.

I really don't know why I felt so sleepy and tired recently ...
Is it symptom of laziness ???? oh shit!! It shouldn't be on that way!

stop!!!! I need start to do exercise now! my tummy getting bigger and bigger. My friends thought I'm pregnant pulak ! ish!  I need some motivation and money!!!! wuahaha~MONEY is on my second top list now ~ no more LOVE on my second top list ! yes I can do it!

feeling

Sometimes I felt myself so hard to survive in this world, I hate myself why don't appreciate and happy with what I have from the beginning till now~ that so simple that I ask for all this while is only HAPPY ...
This is what I want all this times but someone can't give me ~

Sometimes what I want from others is more than from what I can expect.
No matter how hard someone try to make it happy if that person don't have that feeling mean it won't be have that feeling ~If that person have that kind of feeling even a small thing you did to them, they will feel so happy for that small thing you did.

I have no idea what wrong with me this few weeks he just keep appear in my mind no matter where I went and what I did.

Sometimes I really won't realise that all this while, from what I request is it too much or such a simple thing that I wish to make my life be more happier but someone just can be treat it as hard to commit on it.

I miss so much with that moment when we together but I knew it can't go back to the past or live like last time...and I shouldn't do that too.
When I flip over the album that belong to us~ =..) It just make me even miss that moment when we are together =..)

I just hide my feeling so hard all this while. :.../
Why must I have to do such a stupid thing =../
I want to scream it out loud that I just miss you so much!!!!!

I miss the routines that belongs to us: message end with something, when sleeping, when eating, when drinking, when at home, when ......... *secret*
 it's turning out to become part of my habits in my life.
 and now I have to rearrange everything in my life again.
I don't dare to go back my home cause this time is a little bit different from last time.
so I was trying to avoid the memories/routine come and haunted me again. =.../ (cry it out loud)

but please I know myself have to fade and trying to hard to bleach everything that we been through before~
when I think of how you treat me (bad or good), my eyes just can't stop to shed tears.

What happen now it was happened so there is no U turn for it anymore.
What I can do is to keep it as the sweetest memories forever or just erase everything in my mind and replace a new hard disk.

p/s: I seriously need to hide everything about you from my sight now~ I will try my best to hide everything belongs to you since you have your own new life with your new love one~ so it's the times I should let go and move on. I knew I shouldn't freeze the times at the past. (=.../

*I just can't stop missing you*

friends

sometimes I feel so tired with myself~with my thought and personalities
but I know I should appreciate with what I have now~ ^^
other than family bf is the closest people who you live with~

I wish I can meet someone who can cheer me up and make me laugh like my friends does~
I love my family and friends so much~

people always like that~

they always won't keep the promise that they were made before. Don't commit if you think you can't~
 it is so realistic and back to original form when they can't get what they desire ~
that why I prefer to be friends than a more than just a friend ~

hmm~~
I feel so comfortable with my real friends and I felt so uneasy with those who doesn't treat me as their real friend. I feel so weird and feel like something was wrong ~ =.=! maybe I had think too much ~

I just feel so uncomfortable and I don't wish my friends not being real to me~
if don't like me than just stay away from my life or I will go off from your sight~
but please don't ever try to make my day so uncomfortable ~

please no one was perfect in this world and of cause I know who I am and what is my weaknesses
 if can't accept who I am please leave me quietly ~
tq~

p/s: thanks for my buddy who always stay besides me when I need them all the times from the very beginning till now. thanks for those who always be my good listeners to listen  my complaints and never get bored of it.
^^ I'm glad that you guys are my friends and I <3 you all~

girl's heart

girls always like that.
no matters how their bad guys treat them and hurt them

when he is in front of you
your heart beat will still very fast and your nerves will still shivering
when you see him you will still feel very happy even you know he is going to forget about you

........................................

WTF!!! my owner going to increase my rent and put it in a year contract in that way of fucking impolite.
WTF wey~ do I owe you?

=..(
don't you think I need to look some others place or still stay with the same room ?

I do got lots of memories here do you think I need to get rid of it ?

Don't you think I need some new environment ?

Fuck! no thing and making so much of trouble to me! FML!!!!

 when we went for a riding with a gang of new friends

first dinner

 Fukuya 

We had ordered some dishes and tried out their cuisine

here it is~ ^^

This is my favorite salmons sashimi 

I love the most  

Salmon skin salad

Cha Soba

 I love the dinner so much and thank you so much =)

last week I went to Pakson to get some skin care for myself.

It's the time for me to take care of my skin and pamper myself..

I'm so happy with I experience tonight and I did appreciated it so much but too bad I'm not ready for it yet.
I'm so sorry .

I still can't let go of someone and he still keep appear and running in my mind every single second =..(
my mind just can't peace like a lake =(

I need some times to fade and forget about the feeling I had like the past.
I knew I need a new life but I'm seriously not ready for it.

I wish I will use a shorter times to fade the past feeling.

Sunshine

when I pass through Ampang  I saw this in front of my windscreen so I had decided to take down

so you can see the sunshine from the sky?

Even look nice in real =)

I went to KLCC with Seow last two weeks 

I saw this shop so cute and girlie 

there is a various of desserts and ice cream over there...

 

 so tempted =P

see the ice cream so colourful

Seow my senior also my ex - colleagues 

Don't you think it look like a little bit chocolate factory which in 

movie who is the main character - Johnny Depp

bosses

Sometimes I just felt like even an old people also will act and think like a little cute kid.
As I know from what happen with our unit and compare with others,
How is that possible a boss don't try to protect their own staff but push her own staff to wall?
but other bosses try to help someone who need help in that moment.

Seriously? how could be so selfish and always think about her own self and never try to put in other shoes.
So random I felt that I love all my colleagues and all bosses except her.
suddenly I felt that they are so cooperative and helpful when we are need help.

but of cause not all of them are so kind and helpful like some others.
^^
I'm felt glad that I able to know them and work together with them ^^

even some other bosses will ask for hang out, ask us to have some drink and eat some nice foods... that awesome~~