不资格

a little bit felt like don't want to study already~~ hmm~~~ don't know why will have this kind of feeling. starting to felt stress on this few day~~ recently really had a LOT of unfavorably thing happen to me.

DAMN slimming sactuary. they make my face more teruk
! at the begginning my face was not that worse but after i did the facial from slimming sactuary my face become more worse and worse. damn acnes keep on grow and pop out. walao! what the fuck! how they do their business one? if u got $$ they treat you like GOD! if you don't have $$ treat you like SHIT! oh my god! why they so reality one?!

the first time i do the facial treament was so nice and around 3 hours to complete it, the second time start to serve the bad services d around 2 hrs edi done that one is ok but the beautician make my face look more worse after few day of the facial. F! the 3rd time straight away cincai do the facial for me and 1 hours edi done the facial and no mask to apply also. WTF! is it this kind of services to serve their customer? i damn regret ro decide sign the package in slimming sactuary. FUCK! what kind of services is this?! BAN the damn Slimming Sactuary already. this kind of beauty center is really to cheat on the customer. this is their business tactic. damn it! me so suey siao! and i am so stupid and easy to trust someone! i am so stupid man! haiz~~~ cant change to more clever and rational to do something. sigh~

don't ever think to judge by appearance or you think you are qualified to judge that person. ok! you don't know anything about them. SAME! i always try to speak out what i am going to say and what i mean! please think twice when you ask them a question. you do really concern about them! or you just want to know their devil side or gossip them because you all too free to spread the scandal or gossip about others peoples private life or thing???? immature!
HELP! those bad thing and improbity person please FUCK OFF from my sight! don't know why so raged on this kind of person and why this thing keep happen to me? FUCK! fed up when i think about it. some person so easy to trust on peoples, so they just try to hear from one side that they think is correct. immature! non of their business also. sigh!!!

快乐与伤心

me look so pale~~

18SX

crazy-ing there~~she is kissing my breast..wakaka

Shinning(UWA), Siong Teng( DA JIE), MAYMAY, Hooi Ching( JOSSIE)

Siao Po there~~~ queuing up to go in KTV room (GREEN BOX). after sing k we go PJ-Murni Mamak to have our dinner. ^^ a lot of peoples there. some more the food is take a long time to delivered but i think the food is nice and delicious if not why so many peoples go there.

so happy and crazy to hanging out with them! hope we keep the sweet and happy moment forever. ^^

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this is the first time he give me flower~( i think he was read my blog)

he came to kl and find me just for movie... we had talk a lot and he also cried a lot...我伤了他好深~ he just keep on asking me to give him one more chance so sorry i couldn't give u one more chance. once i decide is hardly to change my mind.i wish u can let me go and you also let yourself go. 我需要走出你的世界。 我只希望时间能淡化一切。对不起！我对不起你。i hurt you so deep.
只希望你能好好继续过你生活。
一个坚强的人当遇到爱就会变成脆落吗？

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wow! still remain 9week to go for my exam. so FAST! i still haven start my revision and assignment yet! going to die soon if i keep on like that. STOP! if not i am sure no need to loan already because i will not have a chance to further my study in UK anymore. wouh!!!


see me so decadence!!!

my destiny

a school near my place there suddenly on fire, luckily no one was there.

this is my classmate la~so happy and feel good to same class with them~they all so nice and friendly~.~ too bored in class so just took some pictures to keep as memory when i am study in college. ^^ so enjoying my life now~~felt great~everyday i going out with my friend non stop for 4 week already....god!!! totally dint revise my study....hmm~~~ can't degenerate myself already. argh~~~ loaded with my assignment now~~every semester also the same..erhmmm~~~
today i was fall asleep in my lecture hall. god! i am too tired d. then my classmate took my picture when i sleep. walao!!! so "wat tak". like pig sleeping there.
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playing tarot with my housemate. one of my house mate's bf know how to play tarot, so we all also play with tarot with him. so true~~ and real~~ the first tarot is not that true because that time i don't know what i want to ask and know.i am so confuse but after the 1st games i know what i want d. so the 2nd games and 3rd games was so true. is exactly what happen to me now. hmm~~ so struggling.

i need to let him know what i feel and what i want now. but sometimes i also don't know what i want. that is the problem. i worried alot of thing, but i think i worried too much d i should follow my feel go. details don't matter, we both paid the price.

i had change everything. maybe i more emphasise on my career...maybe i become more reality. maybe i meet someone had change my mind. i don't know. i really don't know. maybe we all also will pass and have this kind of experince. ^^ what he is thinking right now? what he want actually?

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why i suddenly so emotional? sigh~~~

day

My leng lui Hui Ying and Yuki ( housemate)

we attract by the appearance of the Bao, it look so special and colorful..wakaka!!! so we decide to try the Bao there. ^^

the location is at Pavilion's food court

a little bit similar with Donut but it is 'Bao' not Donut

pretty siong Teng...(ex-classmate)

we all went to Pavilion to watch 17 again. the movie is quite nice and funny.

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Monday we have some discussion about Moral assignment. After class we straight away go to Ivy's house(PV3). her house so nice and clean. felt warm. ^^ after we having our lunch everyone also felt tired and sleepy...wakaka!!!

see... Leng Lui Clarice also sleepy until lay on table and think about assignment.

i having lunch with 3 leng lui, hpmm~~~ me felt so "xing fu"(happy)wakaka~~~ so pity..we all "ngai fan hap"

Nescience

Today I should be join my friend to Seremban and enjoy the realm of nature and waterfall in somewhere else but the end i cant make it because something was happen on me so i cant join them. It is to be regretted!

Yesterday, I was make a very hard decision. i hurt him so much and in depth. i am felt sore, i felt agony,i felt affliction! i make him painful, when i know he was suffering, i am also felt that pain. now i notice that i am not really understand how to become a nice girl friend who can give him happiness. now i notice that i do nothing for him. i dint give him any surprise, i dint give him my support, i hurt him all the way. i am really such a trashiness person. tonight he send me a message" lao po gd9" i felt the sore inside my heart on that moment i read the message. i felt guilty, i felt hurt, i felt sorry to him. that feel was torturing me. now i realize that i never sacrifice for him. i done a very small thing for him only. not a big deal compare to others. i so emptiness and ignorance!

Hui Yuan call me for dinner today. we have a very nice chat for a few hours. hmm... i felt like want to do some volunteer services after i am stable in Malaysia. i want to help and save the world, peoples and animals.It's really a lot of thing i never do and try before. i never see or meet a very pitiful person such as their parent abandon their child when they found out their child is abnormal or special. just now Hui Yuan told me what her saw before because she became volunteer from St John before. she told me a lot of type of people at that place. they was so wretchedness... Hui yuan told me that some of the children was lock out in a cage, they treat them like an animal. they even cant go out and have a shower, the peoples there just use the pipe water to rinse or shower them only. oh my god! you know why they do like that? i heard from what Hui yuan said it is because the children will hurt peoples once they come out from the coop. oh my god! children got so dangerous? why they will become like that?

life is always like that. some of them is not lucky like what we have now. i should appreciate what i have now and what god give to me. i am so lucky that i got a very lovely family and friends. suddenly i felt like got a lot of thing i need to contribute for those people who more needed. i need to take out my gut to do something that i want to do. don't give up easily.

12:00am 15th june 09

frenz

Yesterday after class Ai Wen asks me have lunch with her. so long never having lunch with Ai Wen already so miss that moment when we staying together. ^^ Ai wen's bf( Wheeler) was came to KL, so Wheeler's friend so nice and plan a lot of activities for Wheeler. they was such a very funny and humorous person....they really make me laugh whole day for nonstop when i was mingle with them.
So yesterday we went to ice bar and have a nice night there and overnight at Ai Wen's place. they are so gentle and consideration friends... is nice to mingle with them. after hang out with them sure no more stress after that.

i was so confusing about me~ i really think so much already. maybe i need try to stop thinking and worried about that. no one was right or wrong.times to prove everything~

those who take joy at your sorrow, are enemies
those who take joy at your joy, are friends
those who take sorrow at your sorrow, are those that you should you keep into your heart.

My Day

my sis go back home today... hmmm...tonight going to be alone already. sob!sob! so lonely...how nice if someone can let me hug while i sleep. oh my god!!

hah!!! i don't know my study just remain half year only..i was thought still have one year to complete my study. oh my god!!! so fast!!! recently all my classmate and friend ask me where i go after graduate...hmm i still haven think of it so cant answer them... hmm~~

really hard to make a decision which is won't regret forever. once i make that decision, if go well is fine but what if it does not go well then will be very F up!! that F up can be treat as lesson and experience for me if i make a wrong decision. dilemma!!!! let things take their natural course!

hehe~ today i went to Mid Valley have a nice movie with my dear. this is my day la... nothing much just have a movie and dinner then back home but so happy and unhappy..argh!!i don't know what i am talking about la~~















this is the hi tech ship la...the enterprise wakaka

i was remember that when i was kid i had watched the star trek series before.... got a guy quite dark and the forehead got wrinkle one, i just remember that fellow..hehe~~


am i right? which path i should go? believe in destiny? UK?KL?PG?SG? Work?Study?Relax(hehe)?Married(impossible)?

it's hurting me to let it go. won't let it go for nothing.

night ^^ 10:30pm 7th June 09 1st date

this is the time we move on.

health

today is my first day to attend my class. feel excellent! i already full loaded with assignment and tutorial in my 2nd week. yeh!! i got thing to do then wont feel so boring at home anymore. i really like the feeling when i was studying in the class and going to college pay attention that what lecturers are lecture about. really have a very nice feel and mood to study~~^!^ love study life so much! having the most freedom and playful moment in campus life. syiok-nya~~~keke~

i was having my lunch with my classmate today and they asking about my surgery and gastric problem. then i just told them what i know.once i told them that my pancreas got a little bit swollen then they straight away ask me don't consume the medicine for gastric anymore maybe i consume too much of my gastric medicine then causing my pancreas swollen. they also ask about my drinking water is it clean or not and do i consume any supplement like protein powder?? hmm~~~ that time i was thinking of sure indirectly ask me to buy protein powder and the water transaction device from Amway because they both also from Amway haha!!! but i also felt that they also quite true about what they said ...

maybe i always consume gastric medicine too much then causing my pancreas swollen and later maybe will have diabetes if i dint take care of it and my pancreas cant function well. At the moment i was freak out and my mind just keep thinking of how i am going to save my gastric and my pancreas to prevent what will happen to me! oh my go! i so young only!! god!!! don't put me on this pls~~~ i do like have a very healthy person. i already very take care of my health and eating life style if still something happen on me, is really suey siao(unlucky) d!!! sigh!!!! haiz~~~~~ sad really sad!!!

still the same

Saturday already discharged from hospital.my gastric still haven return to good health.F! the gastric pain really make me feel like hell.after the surgery, my gastric is more painful than my wound. oh my god!my gastric happen already more than 1 week, when ever my gastric will recover!?i felt dizzying everyday. i also don't know how i go to class.i really very worried about my study now~

today i go to clinic to consult my gastric again. the answer is same! bull shit! the doctor said maybe my pancreas dietetic got problem.He said a little bit swollen. i need to blood test AGAIN to test whether my pancreas or other organs is it unwell. gosh!!!!!!!! i am really going to faint d. suffering now still receive this kind of news.

why i need to bear all this kind of painful now??? i really not ready to bear all this challenge yet!i also don't want every bad thing happen to me. so torturing me~~ why is me?

i make him angry again because he said i dint support him every times, i always support outsiders. we have some arguing there because of doctor and nurse when i went to consult doctor for my gastric again. he going to show the angry face to doctor because doctor like very blur and don't know what happen to me.

he also show a very angry face to nurse after the nurse show me the medicine and he ask the nurse why give the same medicine for gastric to me again, the medicine also haven finish.the nurse also very fierce and defend herself. i worried they will have a big arguing there so i just ask him to cool down and i said don't scold the nurse because nurse also do their job only.

i know he very take care of me but there is a lot of method to care about me, not must always show the angry look to others then the thing will settle. haiz~~~i really don't know what should i do. i really not understand him why must use "hard" and not choose "soft" to settle the thing. no one was wrong or correct maybe i not understand him and not support him, that why i make him very angry with me. sad!!!!

i just wish i can heal faster...god!!!!blesss.....me~~~~