Depress Month Sha Gua

Recently happen so many thing, especially my working matters~ I'm felt so tired and depressed
This months my sales very poor, I also don't know what's wrong with me.
I getting lazy and lazy . I stop doing follow up on my works and focus on something which not important in my life.

I hate myself so much ~  =./
I messed up my life
I messed up my work

Why so many kind of people in this world.
I was trying to allow myself to accept some strangers to become my friends which not my personality and way to do it.

All this happen to me also due to I was giving myself a chance get to know others other than him in my life.
I should do something which not me from the past.

It's the time to change myself to become more tougher and smart.
I felt sometimes it's so hard to understand someone especially your love one.
I so confuse with myself.


This song remind me of someone
I am so tired with my current life now~
I felt friends is so important in my life compare to any other things~




I remember when we broke up the first time
Saying this is it, I've had enough, 'cause like
We haven't seen each other in a month
When you, said you, needed space, what?
Then you come around again and say
Baby, I miss you and I swear I'm gonna change
Trust me, remember how that lasted for a day
I say, I hate you, we break up, you call me, I love you

Oooh we called it off again last night
But Oooh, this time I'm telling you, I'm telling you
We are never ever ever getting back together
We are never ever ever getting back together
You go talk to your friends talk
To my friends talk to me
But we are never ever ever ever getting back together

Like ever...

I'm really gonna miss you picking fights
And me, falling for a screaming that I'm right
And you, will hide away and find your piece of mind with some indie record that's much cooler than mine

Oooh you called me up again tonight
But Oooh, this time I'm telling you, I'm telling you
We are never ever ever getting back together
We are never ever ever getting back together
You go talk to your friends talk
To my friends talk to me
But we are never ever ever ever getting back together

I used to think, that we, were forever ever ever
And I used to say never say never
Huh, he calls me up and he's like, I still love you
And i'm like, i'm just, I mean this is exhausting, you know
We are never getting back together, like ever
.......



"Sha Gua " means stupid 
Everytimes I watch this video and listen to this song I must cry like hell!!!
=....( sob sob 
I felt the female in this video exactly what am doing now =.....( 
When only it will be end and when only someone come and save me from this kind of life???

I knew !!! I knew no one can help me except me !!! myself!!!
I am so weak 
I am very weak , I cant control my mind and not to think of him...no matter how he treat me I still ........ =../ sob sob

After I heard what people surrounding me to advise me and give some idea how to make myself not to continue living with this kind of miserable life. 
Everytime I felt so much release after I complaint to my friends and share with my friends.

I wish my life will be getting better after CNY~ 
Fighting for my life now~ 
I will never ever getting back together !!!! =.../
NEVER EVER!!!

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After a hectic work, tonight I went for a dinner with my babes at Pavilion @ Morgan field 

This is one of our favourite restaurant in Pavi.

This is the three dishes which is sharing for three of us. ^>^

Pork ribs with BBQ 

It's signature dishes of Morgan Field

Yum Yum

Me and Eve also in love with this ribs

Chicken Gordon Blue

Not really my choice =P

Seafood basket 

I love seafood so much especially fish !!!!

We chat quite a lot for few hours cause it's been so long we never sit down to update our long lost story 

We grow up and people changed too, but I felt myself never change!!!

ouh ~~ no!!! 

I felt my long lost friends changed to a good side which is good. 

we all also have some improvement on our life.

We knew each others since we are 14 years old but get close when we are 16 years old.

OMG!!! Times does past so quick!!!

almost a decade we know for each other already.

It's not a short time tho.

unbelievable

I receive a good news from my babes Eve, she was married and going to have wedding soon.

OMG!!! my sister get married!

I was so happy for her to found her Mr Right finally~ 

I wish her happy and sweet forever ever after =)

After a long chat in Morgan Field then we decide to have a drinking session @ Tom, Dick& Harry 

This is our favourite picture of the night 

BFF, chicks from Taiping  =P

Tadah!!!! 

Eve ,me ,Sheryl

hahaha one pint of beer with one cup of Earl Grey Tea=P

I let them complaint nia~ 

As usual and always 

wuahahaha

I will try to improve next time hehehe

=D

Tomorrow working and I need to work more harder and don't be so lazy to achieve my figure within this year!!! 

ush!!!ush!!! 

We can make it!!!

good luck and all the best ya!!!!

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Everyone is going to set their new resolutions for new year on 2013 but for me ...
hmmm~~ I still don't have any idea what am going to do next or for this whole year~
For me 2013 is still the same like old 2012 ... nothing much different for me and my life.

Regarding my career, I still have no idea what should I heading to but so far so good.
My family all doing goods so far.
my relationship ?? hmmm speechless . this the word I can tell.

BUT I have so many things that I wish to own it. Hopefully I can have it all in this year =)
My wish list :-

1.phone
2.earings
3.clutch
4. bags
5.watches
6.laptop
7.traveling
8. bracelet
9. necklace
10. SLIM + reduce weight is a very MUST!!!
11. a lot of zero in my bank!!! wuahahaha is a MUST too V^.^V

So far that all from what I can think for this moment...

one thing am sure and always not change~ earn my income with my own full 100% effort to achieve my first dream then second and so on.
^.^

I can't to have my dream house then buy a car for my dad!!!! argh!! I seriously in love with Volkswagen Passat B7 deeply.

when I drove it, I really can feel the reliable of safety and high performance with such an affordable price. =D I can't wait to buy one for my dad.

ARGH!!! but yet I still have to achieve my first dream only then only can achieve my second one. =/

Yes, I know I can do it soon.
omg!!!I am old now!!! unbelievable I am going to reached girls expiry date so soon!!!

This is the age that girl's metabolism is start reducing and hard to control the weight and the body shape.

My body will easily become a balloon anytime. sob sob. Even no eat also will turn fat!! =.=!
sign the gym session or not??? sign or not sign??? I was so struggling about this quite a moment already.

It's RM 200 for every month, do you think it's worth to pay for that just to keep my health and improve my exercise activity?

hmmm~

Alright now I don't bother about those problem which is not a problem =P
What I need now is healthy and prosperity!!!
I know I can do it! hehe =P

Happy New Year everyone
soon is Chinese New Year then Valentine
then my birthday
then another half year of 2013 already
then the rest not to mention ....
another new year coming soon 2014 =P
fast right??? OMG!!!!

I need to work harder and not to be lazy in my job now!!
ceng! ceng! ceng $$$$
Money money home!!!

pampering with beauty

My hair stylist recommend me to use hair fall toner from Redken for my scalp treatment. 

there is a mint and cooling feeling after used it.

it was feel so refreshing for my head and scalp

not cheap tho, cost me around RM 100 +- 

I never try the feet mask so I decide to bought to
 try but until now I still got no time for my feet mask yet=./

I love this colour on my hair. 

It look so healthy and natural.

My friends recommend me to use this as one of my removal make up cleanser
It so effective and easily to remove all my make up even for my water proof mascara on my eyelashes.
Good one ^>^ it just make my life more easier and convenient .

deodorant wipes and make you feel like fresh soap on your body. smart one ^.^
Suddenly I in love with Biore products ^.^

I bought a Xmas gift for my customers.

I bought myself some cosmetic from different brands and set of brushers from MAC

nice and sexy pouch MAC given if you buy a set of brusher from MAC ^.^

Benefit for primer and Posie Tint for Blusher and lip color .
These two products also famous and popular products from Benefit.

Some foundation primer, tinted moisturizer SPF 20, and concealer from Laura Mercier.

loose powder from Chanel.

Laura Mercier gaves some small sample for me. 

SK II Facial Treatment essence is one of my skin care other than Laneige essence and water bank from Laneige.

My sunblock which bought from Dr Ko is going to finish , i was thinking to change my sunblock 

Is there any idea to have a great sunblock without sticky and block my pores and create acne on my face?

anyone ?? any recommendation for that???

After shopping @ SG Wang then I decide to drop by one of the nail spa for my pedicure and medicare

Tadah!!! the lousy colour that I choose =P

and I did let them convince me to spend more on my nail protection and my heel for prevention to crack.

=.=! get con~

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I had my fractional laser @ one of the famous aesthetic clinic @ skin Club Menara Hap Seng.

this is my 3rd session of my skin fractional laser on my face.

So far there is no different for my acne scars on my face 

sob sob =...(

wasting my money again????

this is the machine they used for fractional laser 

They can set the level of the fractional laser.

Next month going to have my 4th session of fractional laser.
Hopefully there is any small tiny improvement =...(
dont expect much on this~
I hate my sensitive skin with acne scars =....(
 sob sob~

my fashion haul

I love baby orange with beige pink colour recently.
I like the small sparkling pearls around the sleeves with gold colour  and black chiffon long sleeves ^.^

Orange pink again with the small hold like kneaded sweater with black butterfly buckle 

 white blouse from Nichi , it;s very comfortable to wear with  lighter like a feather.

The dress with some black laces on the side which create some sexy- ness for the skirt.
The turquoise colour dress is more look like for beach wear or summer wear with lighter material^.^

A simply black dress with gold chain surrounding the U neck. I love it so much ^.^






















The chiffon blouse which different colour but similar design.
It's kind of transparent if wear it alone. You may try to wear a corset inside or small little spaghetti shirt.

The color with the nice printing. One of my favorite too =)



All the clothes above is from Sg wang , Nichi, Dressing Paula and some other boutique.
There is long time I dint go for shopping. I was so happy after I brought them all in one times. ^.^

Now I understand why shopping able to make one girl felt so happy and satisfaction with their life.
Actually I bought  4  to 5pair of shoes but I haven update for my shoes collection.
Soon I will share with you guys =)

I will update more about my fashion haul soon =P

foods at everywhere

one of the nice restaurant in Bangsar Telawi.
I have my lunch with my dear colleagues last month which my colleagues knew this restaurant boss who is always went to Bangsar Village for gym.
So she brought us to his restaurant . The famous chef who called Chef Riz.


this restaurant have the combination cuisine here.
Malay cuisine with western foods here.

Here is the environment of the Flavour with very friendly staff over there.

The dishes that I order for myself is Beef wrap with Tar Tar source
nice one~ in love with it.

My colleagues order wild mushroom soup

I had tried few spoon of mushroom soup , wild mushroom is not my taste =P
but this soup with a nice decoration

another dishes that order by my colleagues , prawn olio spaghetti
nice and simple dishes

chicken chop on chop board with nice mashes potato and vegetables

We are enjoying with their foods there.
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Last month I bought a gift for my friend to appreciate her help on my job.
but we are so busy till there is no time to meet up for a lunch or dinner and pass the gift to her.

I was attending my friends birthday at Bangsar Jln Bangkung @ Leonardo's
They serve nice foods and with very romantic environment.
The gift for her.

when I work on weekend @ Segamat
This is the ever nice breakfast I ever had!
In love with this breakfast!
It is so vintage and old time ~~

Do you still remember of this packaging of Nasi Lemak??

Everyday and always crowded and have to wait to have a breakfast @ Nan Yang Kopitiam!!!

"Tai Kong Bao" toasted bun with yummy Kaya and butter

Early morning to have a nice breakfast and start working

There is a uncle to selling this all collection of paper money and coin which is discontinue to use.

Half boiled egg !!!! it a must for breakfast!
Yummy Yummy!!!

very small pack of mihun with sambal~

Banana leaf Nasi lemak

My favorite hot choco here!!!

the best ever I had for this crepes at One Segamat Mall @ Johor.

Smell so delicious with a very crispy crepe

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Back to KL foods here.

KL@ behind Petaling street alley

Nice yong Tou fu here

Chu cheong fan and laksa is so so only.

nice one~

another yummy food stall here.

Duck rice at one of the Kopitiam @ PJ old town next to UOB.

There serve some others side dishes like braise pork, vegetables and pork organs.

Even though am not fans of duck rice but the gravy they made is really awesome one!!!

^.^

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