feelingS

feeling of love

feeling of faith

feeling of betrayed

feeling of bored

feeling of pain

feeling of happy

feeling of hate

feeling of sweet

feeling of complicated

feeling feeling feeling

...

why there is some people will have sex with someone without feel?

desperate for sex? (sex addicted)

I hate guy who lied to me

i hate guy who cheating and betrayed on me

i hate guy who flirting

i hate guy who hits girl

i hate guy who hurt girl

i hate guy who have mistress

i hate guy who look for prostitute

  i hate guy who ons

i hate guy love to have sex with someone without feel *an animal?*

i hate guy who sex addicted

i  hate guy who making story

i hate guy who like to giving kind of lame excuses

i hate guy who f-ing fake

 i hate guy who not sincere

i hate guy who not real

i hate guy who f-ing around

i hate guy who use dick to think

i hate guy who sissy

i hate guy who make use of girls

i hate guy only close to someone who only benefit to him

i hate guy who dont want work and wish to get $ without paying anything

i hate guy who no goal and no plan

i hate guy who f**king selfish

i hate guy who treat girl like a f**k machine

i hate guy who treat girl as his covering cos he is gay or bi

and alots!!!!

......

*no offense*

=...(

bored

I just feel boring for whole day already.

hmm~~

other than clean my house and my room

i just keep sitting in front of the computer and TV whole day and for few days already.

mood swing and sleep deprive recently.

crazy...

all my pimple are partying on my face now!

 

and one thing ....

i was wondering for quite long time already, why my skin turn to superb dry skin?

my skin on face crack man!

scary.

My poor lip crack as well

gosh! my lip got lot of wrinkle

who can help me please!?

my skin is terrible.

argh!

Me and my friends should be go to La'Promise for a piece of nice cake but in the end din't make it for some reason.

=(

I ask my bro to help me get me some cake but the restaurant close already.

too bad =(

So randomly just feel to have some dessert for myself even i don't like sweet stuff much though.

since i heard some of my friends said the La'Promise 's cake was so nice and not too sweet ..yeah it's my taste~

I have no idea what time I'll go to bed tonight

hmm~~

haiz~ my life boring.

 

no work boring, 

got work more boring,

got money won't be so boring already.

How nice imma money printer.

night my love

muack =*

All i want is everything

I hate love

I hate the mornings cause I know what they bring
You get up and take a shower and in no time, you're leaving
It sounds so selfish but I cant help but think if you knew how much I needed you, you'd stay

Chorus

I hate goodbyes
I hate these tears in my eyes,
I hate myself for the way I feel about you everytime,
I've had enough
I'm sick of wishing you were around me everyday, everynight
It's way too much
I hate love, I hate love ooooh

Verse 2

I hate your phone calls in the middle of the day,
'Cause all they do is just remind me that my baby is so far away
It drives me crazy cuz I need you here with me
I know its hard for you to understand it when I say

Chorus


I hate goodbyes
I hate these tears in my eyes
I hate myself for the way I feel about you everytime,
I've had enough
I'm sick of wishing you were around me everyday, everynight
It's way too much
I hate love, I hate love ooooh

[ From: http://www.metrolyrics.com/i-hate-love-lyrics-toni-braxton.html ]


Bridge

I dont want to feel this alone
(cant help it)
Everytime I walk out that door, still missing you
(cant help it)
Wish I didnt need you this much
(cant help it)
I love how it feels when we touch

Chorus

I hate goodbyes
I hate these tears in my eyes
I hate myself for the way I feel about you everytime,
I've had enough
I'm sick of wishing you were around me everyday, everynight
It's way too much
I hate love, I hate love ooooh


I hate goodbyes
I hate these tears in my eyes
I hate myself for the way I feel about you everytime,
I've had enough
I'm sick of wishing you were around me everyday,everynight
It's way too much
I hate love, I hate love ooooh

Boy without heart

I love a boy without a heart.
I’m but a string on his guitar.
He would never know that I’m in pain,
Waiting for a song that he can’t play.

I was confident the night we met,
The moment was so strong.
Like a piece of bubblegum,
Sweet at first but it don’t last that long.
Now I’m filled with insecurities,
It’s time to spit you out.

‘Cause you, you’ll never change,
The games that you play,
It’s just who you are.
And I, have to believe,
It’s you and not me,
The boy without a heart.

Yaaaaaayyyyaaaayyy

I love a boy who doesn’t feel.
Believes what he says until it’s real.
All that I want, you can be,
But you can not pretend that long for me.

I was beautiful the day we met,
But now I’m not so sure.
Awkward and alone you,
You don’t make me feel sexy anymore.
I’m snapping myself out of it,
I gotta close this door.

‘Cause you, you’ll never change,
The games that you play,

http://www.hotnewsonglyrics.com/jojo-boy-without-a-heart-lyrics.html

It’s just who you are (just who you are).
And I, have to believe,
It’s you and not me,
The boy without a, the boy without a,
The boy without a heart.

Oooooooo

I just like to think that I,
Deserve a nice respectable guy.
So why am I here at your door, at your door.
If I was sane, I’d take my crazy behind,
And get back in my BMW,
‘Cause I’m a self-made woman,
And someones gunna treat me better than you do (ha).

I just need ta, I just need ta calm down.

‘Cause you, you’ll never change,
The games that you play (the games that you play),
It’s just who you are (just who you are).
And I, have to believe (And I I ….believe),
It’s you and not me (It’s you and not me),
The boy without a heart (the boy without a, the boy without a heart).

‘Cause you, you’ll never change,
The games that you play (Oooooo….you’ll never change),
It’s just who you are (just who you are).
And I, have to believe (I just have to believe for my sanity),
It’s you and not me (Oooo),
The boy without a heart (the boy without a, the boy without a hmmm).

 ........................................................................................

my house almost get rob tonight..=..( luckily they run always. they dint come in to my house success.

i was get shock ad until now i still have the scary felling.

they try to come in from my back door, then from my room's window then the other one climb up  from the roof top...

no idea why they dint come in after that.

damn scary ..that time my grandma at home alone only. 

after i go out not more than 30 min they try to open the door already.

Now i was so worry they will come back=..(

what should i do?

huh?

sob sob=...(

i pray hard they dont come back again for forever!!! please....

i don't want my family happen anything or get hurt from them...

P/s: god bless us.I think I can't sleep already.

sob sob=..(

I starting to feel better without him now.

I slowly can let it go and be myself back

*I admit sometimes i do miss him and thinking about him*

I feel that life is getting challenge with my working life soon.

My dream come close to me right now.

All I wishes will be come true soon!!!

OMG! 

unbelievable!

My family and friends wake me up.

Family and friends' power is incredible.

Sy pissed off with me and he call me at 4am.

He scold me and honest to me. *actually he was abit sober and drunk that time* : P

He said he damn piss off with me after he know my stuff.

He's right.

Thanks again my dear.

you are truly my best friend forever~

Thank you so much that you sincerely treat me as your BFF.

=.)

My life can't be happening and fun without good friends

human being

I have a nice chat with my friends and I get to know someone more ...

In this world human is really a scary 'thing'

We have a special topic tonight.

We talk about psycho people like rape their on sons and daughters, torturing people, even rape their sister stuff. we talk about bi/ homosexual and other related, no offence.

I just wonder people why must hurt people in that way.

What if one day you found out your love one or husband is a gay or bi then how you feel that ?

gosh!

World changed!

Some of the 'human' even have the thinking or intention to rape on his own children?

WTF is going on?

The real story from HMI magazine in Chinese. *recommend by my friend*

oh my god!  

when u read those story and you will feel, why the human in the world such a scary thing and scary than those ghost and animal~

oh my god!

When you flip over with the newspaper you will read those news like rape her own daughter and son then treat then as a sex slave, and so many other lunatic cases like this~

 

They can do anything to fulfill their sex needs with those insane action?

sound ridiculous right?

What you earn in the end?

satisfy their "special,unique, extraordinary needs"?

gosh!

unbelievable

p/s: listening to just one last dance

taking back my love

go ahead just leave

can’t hold you, you’re free

You take all these things

if they mean so much to you

I gave you your dreams

’cause you meant the world

so did i deserve to be left and hurt

You think I don’t know you’re out of control

And then I’m finding all of this from my boys

Girl you said I’m cold, you say it ain’t so,

you already know I’m not attached to materials

Chorus:

i give it all up, but i’m taking back my love,

i’m taking back my love,

i’m taking back my love,

i’ve given you too much,

but i’m taking back my love,

i’m taking back my love, my love,my love,my love,my love

Ciara:

What did I do to give us the cue

I’m just confused as I stand here and look at you

From head to feet, all it’s from me

Go head, keep your keys, that’s not what I need from you

You think that you know (Enrique:I do), you’ve made yourself cold (Enrique:oh yeah),

How could you believe them over me, I’m your girl

You’re out of control (Enrique:so what?), how could you let go (Enrique:oh yeah)

Don’t you know I’m not attached to materials

Chorus:

i give it all up, but i’m taking back my love,

i’m taking back my love,

i’m taking back my love,

i’ve given you too much,

but i’m taking back my love,

i’m taking back my love, my love,my love,my love,my love

Enrique: So all this love I give you, take it away

Ciara: You think material’s the reason I came

Enrique: If I had nothing what you want me to say

Ciara: you take your money take it all away

p/s: I love the video so much
I love their apartment so much

I love their interior design for that apartment so much

sweet

we clean our house together with my siblings today

So long I never have that feeling already.

This feeling I got is when I was kids like 8 to 9 years old.

We play water and fool around.

haha

Then night time we whole family having a dinner in restaurant.

My daddy 5 dearest children also back to sweet home and having a dinner together.

I can sense that my dad also feel so happy when see all of us come back home and have a very nice dinner with him.

I love the dishes we order tonight...
I love it!

I know he still worry about me so much.
Dad and grandma I wont make you feel heart pain and worry about me anymore~
Everything is end.Dad and my family!

<3 I love you. <3

I felt so grateful today.

I appreciate that every single moment spending with my family!

p/s: I can live without you; I can happy without you.
Listening to Edward Maya -Stereo love

home

back to my home~ 

Feel so awesome~

home is the best~

hmm

Feel secured 

Feel warm 

Feel lovely

Feel the protection

meet up with my friends 

Chit chat with my family

Dinner with my family

Love it the most~

jobless is woe

I really have no idea why PPS no more western and Europe drama already.

=..(

Sad!

I can't watch my Gossip Girl, Vampire Diaries and Nikita already=..(

Argh~~

Why huh?

Anyone can tell me ?

Luckily I got PPS accompany me all the times.

Now, my life only got PPS with me.

If not I think I will bored like hell.

I just feel like I don't have that motivation like last time to go for Yoga classes, Go to gym for treadmill , Swimming and outdoor activities already.

I own an extremely unhealthy life style like no exercise, midnight around 2am to 3am only go too bed, wake up around 12pm to 1pm. Then have my brunch around 2pm to 3 pm, sitting in front of computer until dinner.

OMG!

This is my routine for 2 months already!

 Crazy!

I just become more lazy and lazy like a pig.

I just sleep, eat and poo poo.

That it.

I really felt lifeless.

I want work now!

I want job now!

I just have a great chat with Nick and my friends recently.

They do inspired me and give me a great guidance for me.

I love to mingle with them and feel comfortable to mingle with them.

I love to mingle with those friends who can talk anything, everything in everywhere.

The person who always make me laugh out loud when on MSN is SY.

He really super funny when I chat with him.

He really the only one make me laugh out loud every time I chat with him.

I really happy to have them when am in KL.

I wish our friendship will goes for forever. 

=)

XOXO

With love

I went out with a friend of mine who same age with me but his thinking is mature = $.

haha...yea.Life and world is reality.He was so right.

We should fight for $$ when we're young. He is my very first guy that I ever met and talk about investment and about how to making lot of money in his age.

I can know a lot of thing out there from him. ^-^

He got almost 4 to 5  years working experience already and he had a lot types of friends in his life so he know quite lot of things from his parents, friends and friend's parent *if not mistake*

I quite salute him =)

He really didn't waste his time to do something he don't like and he really fight for money so hard.

I know he will have a brighter future.

Delucca

I have my new year eve dinner in Delucca @ Jln Nagasari.

 This is what I had ordered.

Gnocchi pasta with duck.

Grill chicken

The overall of the environment is not bad but the food is so so and I really not happy with the price.

Perhaps because of new year eve.

Every price of the foods in the menu were double up like RM36 become RM70 or RM80 for one main course.

=.=!!

...............................................................................................

A nice place for Sisha and hang out with friends.

Caffienne restaurant and Star light for Sisha @Jln Amapng

There is lot of young people who like to hang out in this place.

My friend brought me there to try their Sisha and is my very first time to try the Sisha.

After the Sisha my head just felt like spinning and very heavy.

=.=

Sisha not nice one.

I try to bring my friends to cafeninne but it's already close up.

FYI, Cafeinne restaurant already move to Kampung pandan.

Star light already move to Sunway Giza.

in love with study

Now is the TARC end semester of examination but there is some college just start their class on this month such as Taylor and Inti College and some other colleges and Universities.

There is a lot of universities and college having an open day for the beginning of the year.

How wish I can enroll for a new college and start my class now!

I really love studying..... life.

=.(

No worry, no stress except exam moment.

If I'm a rich people of cause I will get my double degree right now but I know it's wasting my time to do that.

How wish I'm just 18 and just finished my SPM so that I can searching for my new college now.

If let me choose which college and what major for my future now,

I might choose Public relation or Mass Communication or marketing for my major and the college will be Sunway College Monash Universities =)

Of cause I'm so proud of my college but I want to try a new environment and new life in new college as in I know well about my College already but too bad it's impossible will happen to me already.

I will start to do my ICSA preparation once I back to my home.

..............................................................

Sometimes I do really lost about myself, life and people.

Why the thing you wish to and you cant get it but the thing you don't want it just stick to you.

????

Beauty is not everything .

I should learn about this.

Some people trying to have a perfect for outer beauty,

Some people chasing for money,

Some people desperate for lust,

Some people want for real love,

....

In this world it's really hard to make it extremely clear with what you wants and understand other people wants.

Actually what I want?

To be frankly, what you want?

I just so blur and confuse...

dreaming

This movie so funny and nice to watch~

I love Ben Stiller's movie

He was so funny and look so handsome even in his age now.

................................................................

I was day dream all the times cause am too free already.

Dream to get a my dream house in KL =.=!

swt right?

Not much I have wish, just get a property The Park Residence @ Bangsar South is enough for me already.

but I know it's kind of hard for me to get a property around RM600++ before reach 30...

Sad

Do nothing everyday and keep sent my resume only.

I should have a new start but ....

I should study my 2 ICSA papers already and I have to start to plan how to get the money for my exemption fees RM1600 and RM550 

Ish!

Plan to go their library to do the revision with Clarice already.

I was worry there is not time or not enough time for us to do those revision when we are working.

die 99 for this time.

What I had decided is correct?

I know I shouldn't do like that but I just can't control myself not to do that after many times.

=..(

sorry friends 

I had disappointed you all.

Sorry~

=..(

2011

New Year 

and I can't wait for CNY already

I got the Chinese New Year feeling come to me ^-^

Then I should start work no matter what job and requirement is that already.

I can't jobless for more than 4 months. *even i got work some part time while I waiting for any response from company*

Am just useless...

=(

What I will do in this year?

Blur~

  I will having my life in KL or SG?

I should leave or I should stay?

I'm still in dilemma.

I want to take my ICSA examination on June and December.

4 papers in total.

I have to settle the exemption fees RM1600 to MAICSA before March.

Argh!!

I wish everything I still able to catch up for that 4 subjects.

I wish me and my family will have a happy and great years

I wish my family be healthy and wealthy every single second

 I wish myself to have a great career and magnificent life with friends and family without worry.

Levain

We having lunch @ Levain

We order 7 pieces of Macaroons after lunch.

We don't like much of sweet stuff so don't order much.

This is my Chicken Bolognese pasta 

my comment just not bad.

A lot of people recommended their pastry was great. but I don't feel to have bread or cake so I just order Spaghetti.

<3 My bestie ^_^ <3

This is what i get from the gift exchange

I love this so much... hehe

The gift from him

Xmas gift

1st year anniversary

Outer Beauty

Now I only know that KL also got a lot of gorgeous and beautiful girls are fixing their beauty with money. I was thought it only common for Korean and Japanese , now Singapore also very common for plastic surgery already but I really don't know that in KL the girls were very young age *18-25* also go and have some plastic surgery to make their look more perfect in term of appearance.

Wow, I also feel like want to boost up my confident by that way. =)
I don't have that gut to do that but I pretty sure I will do it when the times was right. 90% sure!

Top list is
-cosmetic beauty like to cure my pimple skin and laser afterward.
-slim and shaping my body
-laser my scar on my body and my forehead. I had a very deep and big scar on my forehead cause by someone. =..(
-my face wuahahaha *this one I really need an extremely courage to do this*

This is nothing to hide and lie about it.
I won't care how other people say.
This is what I happy with my life on.
Be confident and be real and happy with your life.

...............................................................................................................

Just ignore my eye. Damn fugly cause I was cried the day before like hell.

So my eye just swollen like a big ball.

I went to Pavilion with Charlotte last few days.We went to Pavilion to get some gifts for friends.
After that, Charlotte went to Dragon-i having her dinner and I just order a drink that too sweet for me.

my eye still swollen=..(

I went to Mid Valley with Clarice and settle something in Maicsa and LJMU convocation stuffs  yesterday.
I just falling in love with one pair of shoes in MNG and a few dress and pants from MNG.oh my god!there was having a big sales on year end.So pack there.It's make me no mood to pick the clothes there.
The price was so cheap for that shoes RM149 only. I love the shoes so much but ..... =( sigh so I leave the shoes without bring it home. sob sob..

 

 I don't make up on that night so my face just look like sick and pale 

*ignore my ugly picture i just want to share with you all this is my very 1st time I try Sisha=)*

My forehead had a very deep scar on it.=..(

I suffering flu so my nose damn red on that time *blush*

Night, my friends call me out at 1am and we heading to my new hang out place- Stalight Cafe @ Ampang for sisha. I ask Charlotte to tag along with us. ^_^
I having a happy night with them..<3 XO <3
This is call life.

P/s: thanks again my lovely friends who always spending part of their time for me.

=) XOXO =*

I love you all.

Appreciated much.

Xmas eve

This year I having my Xmas eve with my best friends Travis and his friends.
We went to Hartamas Korean BBQ for a nice dinner and I know a lot of new and nice and extremely funny friends from Travis.
After that we off to Royal Oaks @ Mont Kiara to have some drink "Kilkenny" ^_^

Steve was so humor and he really make me LOL. when his girl friends stuck the Xmas hat to his chest and create a boob at Steve chest. Steve just keep shake his single boob and "za" it. Then create another boob the other side and shake again. swt=.=!! They really make me laugh out loud until my tears out. /xD

Qi Qi and her husband so sweet...they are new married couple.Qi Qi is very young only. If not mistake is same age with me.Both of them so sweet and lovely couple.... I wish I will get one real love soon like them. create a happiness for each other everyday =)

and some others friends. We play some card games and chit chatting over there.
So nice!

I wil upload the picture soon. The picture with Travis and Steve's girlfriend...

I had plan to go The Hill @ Damansara Height .They must be a super good and nice environment to hang out with my lovely friends^-^. I can't wait for it~

I don't have any plan for my New Year Eve but I know it''s gonna a great and unmemorable moment for me^-^ I going to have my New Life ON!!!! argh~~~~ I can't wait for it!

XOXO
with my sincere and real  LOVE

P/s: thank you my lovely family and friends who always support me every single seconds.
Especially my lovely family.
I love you all so much and I won't let you all worried about me anymore....
I love you grandmama and daddy deeply into my heart.

No turning back

 *Google source*

stop copying my word and my style.

stop simply thinking and blaming others and push away all your responsibilities to others

and thought you're right! omg! how could you?

 stop complaining and said how much you love her in fact you're NOT!

yea! this is all what I want! 

yea! I have to do this!

If not my life will ruin and torture by you.

yes! you're right all the times.

You just go back to your "old" one. 

He is the one who will life together pay for you until u and he die together.

Please stop hacking my privacy!

Please! I beg you stop interfere my privacy!

I didn't do this to you and you better treat me fair A LITTLE!

Whatever you want to say!

END means END

No turning BACK!

What had happen means already happen!

unless you able to turn the clock back to one years and 4 months before!

People who regret will never be me.

=)

Of cause I will live happily ever after with my true and real love;

Of cause I will live happily ever after without you exist in my life;

Of cause I also deserve to have a normal life life like others have;

Of cause I know what I'm doing, you want to filed then you filed until you die.

NO MORE NEXT TIME!

=) SOFTB,MFAH!

Someday you will realize what you had lost

Someday you will realize how abnormal you're

Someday you will realize how pathetic you're

Someday you will REGRET FOREVER with what you had lost and 

what you did to someone who totally gave you her heart start from the very first day she saw you!

You wouldn't know! You not understand!

you not even care about how others think and feel

and what you care is all about yourself

YOUR OWNSELF!

Take it for granted kid.

=)

Is for your own sake.

I dint put you in the jail is consider very kind to you.

remind you again.

NO ONE will let you cheated, betrayed,bullied and fooled so MANY times like again and again 

but also forgive you in the end.

I can 100% tell you

NO ONE will like me to accept who're you in this world.

100% sure! *except your lonely "old man"*

you go and try and see

to get a true and real love from them.

SOTB! you're born to be like that.

nothing can change from you.Is NOTHING!

nothing hope from you

=extremely hopeless

= totally disappointed 

= impossible you'll change from devil, creature to become a normal person

=)

No worry. "AH".

 I will live happily ever after with "RO" on and you make me to filed this.

NO ONE does=)

I'll never ever remove it from my life cause it help me in my life to move on.

I have to....

GOOD BYE

this is the last post I talk about you.

I will never ever mention about it again...

It's past~

Let it go.

Someday I will let you go no matter how hard it is.

I'll not turning back. you should understand and know who I am.

=)

I no need to prove to you or show to you I've have a happiness life with someone who love me.

It's not necessary to let you know my life weather is sad or happy.

cause it's doesn't matter anymore.

you just keep on with your "life"

I just move on with my life

Seriously, I believe my life will more happy every single second without you.

=)
Thanks for everything 

Is real talk.

Someday you will understand what you had done all the times

since you still young and immature with a kid brain.

continue with your "farker" attitude,maniac thought and sex maniac in mental and physical with your lonely old man.

=) 

One last thing
If you give me your real love
if you treat me as your true gf
you won't treat me like that
and let everyone know about it
and simply talk about me until like this.wont show to people how bad his gf is but in fact is not real.
how pathetic I am to falling in love with this kind of creature who always try to harm my life and hurt me deeply and talking something not real on his gf.=...) thanks AH...I know who're you all the times
but you didn't
people who mature won't do this to their love one
people tend to keep it for their own and try to protect her as much as they can
try to mending and save her life from any harm and insecured
but you didn't !
yes I forgot already
you're still kid.
=../

Take care

The End

"Listening to impossible by Shontelle" 

Day 3

This few day I just keep having a nightmare

almost different stories but same person into my nightmare

"source from Google images"

I still wondering about something everyday

Ish! I just can't stop thinking about that!

I need to have some trips

I need to have some work to do

I extremely hate those people who don't keep their promise

Even caught red handed also don't want to admit they are wrong and twisting to cover the real story

craving for affection;

dream of perfection.

"Love is sweet when it's new, it's even sweeter when it's true"

 There should be better know it earlier than later

When the character of man is not clear to you then

look at his friends

somehow some of them don't have ANY of friends so 

where I can see his real character from there?

something was wrong cause he might be abnormal!

"FEAR = Fuck everything and run"

*Google images*

The end

found his replacement

found his back up

found his own life

*hunt for other and hurt and cheat others*

realize my stupidity

realize I been fooling around

realize I get betrayed

One day you will know how much I there for you when I'm gone in your life

move on

behind just full with the memories

That it

drama was ended

no more new season

no more stories

no more drama

 put my life on track 

Chasing better tomorrow

listening to Nelly-just a dream

25 DEC

It's an unforgettable day for me!

for others is nothing special about it but for me,it is!

of cause new life is welcoming me

I wish Santa will make my wish comes true.

Thank you Santa!

=..)

I wish the other wishes also will come true !
how wish I have a life like other couple.
how wish I have my life back SOON!

It's not end of the world ..

sob sob/=..(

I should wake up and stop crying
Now I've know how foo I am
thought you were someone to rely on, thought you were someone to protect me.
No. it is not. you just tore me apart!
I will found a real love and you will never to fool and hurt me again

It's not worth for...I'll keep telling myself but take times 

It's take timeS!

=..)

met with the creature

Today, after wake up at 10am, I have stretch my body and walk slowly to the balcony and look out to the sky ....
Today the sky just look so grey and the weather just breezy~
No sun for few days already but i love it cause i hate hot!

Actually recently the sky also full of the haze... after that heavily rain in KL.
My day just like a weather , some times sunny sometimes raining and sometimes just grey....
who have that capability to make my mood become more stable and cheer all the times?
sigh!!! what am doing right now? playing a fire?
put my life at risk?
where suppose I should go and what suppose I should do right now?
just go with the flow?
Ten more days will be 2011 ...
New year
What is in my mind? I just feel like I'm suffering all the times and been torturing for one whole years since I had met a creature in my life.
so confuse.

dead to prove love?

Today I go to shopping with my dear Clarice in Kl.
Again, so randomly we wear like a couple go out today=)
I wear a long sleeve black white stripe blouse with black pant.
she also wear a black white shirt with black pant. today I wear a black frame spec and she also wear similar spec today=) our thought are channeling haha xD

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After I come back from shopping and dinner then I read all the facebooker also talking about a very handsome young man commit suicide, he just jump out from his house in Cheras just because of his girlfriend choose to break up with him for 4 months relationship.=.=!!! how ridiculous he is?! huh?

This is the stupidest thing that ever do in the world... not worth for it.
He choose to run away from some small barriers or try to showed that he really love his girlfriend by dead huh? R.I.P young man....

There is lot of different types of people exist in the world... some are brutally hurt their love one by fist, some of them by mouth, and some of them by cheating, betrayed, hiding, lying and mentally hurt or even acting like a lunatic to hurt the people who love them.
We should love ourself and protect own self instead of allowing people a chance to hurt you.some people just love to bullies people who soft-hearted.
I believe that no matter how pretty and beautiful you are the guys in the world also will cheating on you when they feel bored with you and try to satisfy their lust with others.

girls are the same in all levels and in any age. They will feel jealousy, care, lack of confidence on the relationship and so on once they felt the treat from outside... How every girls wish to implant a GPS or CCTV in their dick and head!*by Queenie*
hmmm~ speechless.... guys is like born to be like that. can't change...but girls did change a lot nowadays. They wont simply let guys bullies anymore. They become more smarter=) It's a great sign~

I just feel so tired ....I should go to sleep now..night everyone XOXO with love

working hard for it

Today I got my interview in TM tower for HR. Hopefully I got this job ASAP. If they accept me I still have to go for the second interview on this job. hmm~ pray hard for that. I did ask for the pay but she never let me know the amount.=( hmm~~market rate.

Monday I went to Hong Leong Bank in Pj for executive credit control. Oh my god! I already reject that job ..wuahaha this is not my job. I don't wan to become a "sao sou mui" like a loan shark to collect the debt from HL credit card holder? A big NO WAY!!! thanks lot~one year contract plus one year probation with the pay for RM1800?!!? gosh~

Tomorrow I still have the other interview to go @ Kepong. hmmm~ It's an event company in a "ulu" location..

Luckily I got some part time job for myself while I looking for full time...If not I really don't know how I'm going to survive in KL. hmm~

Check out my stupid shirt! the size is totally not mine...

No idea what they work with it.

I just feel like am wearing a pajamas to work!

close to it

End of the year, is the time to shopping for new things .... I want everything is NEW including my life, and PEOPLE~ but I just feel like this year end don't have any sales go on... weirdo~ so long never hang out with my gang of bestie already. I miss them weh~window shopping, tea time, movie time, gossip-ing , hmm all the girls thingy...

I just chuck and forget everything happen on the 2010 away and forever ever.
Start my new life =) I know 2011 is gonna be my year wuahaha~ look forward into my target=plan and achieve my goals!
erm! I know I can do it.

First thing I must do it is work work work and work!Fight for more $ and better tomorrow for myself and family!
I want to pamper myself and my family very much. Pay them for traveling, buy them tonic...
Now my turn, hehe~=) medicure and pedicure every month, spa massage, hair treatment, ok....pamper myself from top to toe and travel everywhere when I got my time. *grab both of my hand and smile* teehee~~

Second, I need my healthy life style back seriously . I can't become an owl already. I should take care of myself and don't let my stomach hungry for few hourS!!!*rolling my eyes*
I should buy and consume supplements for instances collagen, Vitamin A,C and E, hmm~~ fiber, EPO and so on...
Yoga, Gym, swimming, hiking, badminton, and a lots of sport and out door activities is waiting for me to love them.


Third,skin care is a must for me... gosh! I really feel like want to die just because of my skin! damn it! ok ok...I should sayang=love my skin then only they will listen to me. hmm~

Fourth, set my goals and do it such as shaping and slim down my body + reduce 4 kg of my fat! tak boleh tahan with my elephant thigh la~I just feel like to slice it part by part...argh!!!

I wish my all my short term goal is come true. erm~~not much, I just have a simple thing I want. I want simple life, simple people and simple matter~

Future

It was so happy that I got two interview appointment finally which is from Hong Leong Bank and the other one is event company@Kepong.
They ask me to interview for this morning and tomorrow morning but I postpone the interview to the next Monday and same to the event company ...how ridiculous I am... request for change the date of interview because I forget to bring my relevant document to KL. hmmm   =.=!

erm~~ I was worrying about what if I get job in HLB or that Event company @ Kepong and how I suppose go to work which the place is near the federal highway and Kepong?By LRT? KTM? Rapid Bus?I should taking it as serious to consider about that. still in struggling for everything.

Today I got the other interview from don't know which company . they call me for interview on Wednesday. Wow.... suddenly so many company call me in the same time.. =.=!
I wish I able to get the job that I wish all the time and the most important thing is I able to get along with the colleagues and adapt to the working environment...

Good luck to myself. I wish I will stick to my plan and get what I wish for my brighter future=) hehe...
I'm so exited with my working life because my goal is come closer to me day by day. (^_^)

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My dear Jossie was so free and ask me for snowflake @ Pavilion yesterday.
she purposely drive to find me from Semenyih and after our tea time then go back for the movie with her sister. Wow... all my friends stay far away from me but they still able to come and hang out with me in KL. How grateful I am. How nice and sweet they are=) XO
I super happy that I have them to be my lovely friends.I will find them once I got my own transport.Too bad, I still have to wait for it to get my own transport in future.
 Suddenly I just feel like to have something sweet to cheer myself up=)
So I choose this out of my options.

My lovely Jossie who driving from semeyih to KL for dessert because we both also idle and feel boring so she come and find me for tea time...

Do you all realise that we wear the same color of the blouse?
hehe~yea we have the mutual thought ~ xixixi~

 Nice but extremely full after you finish it =)